It's deafening, It's inspiring

15/10/2009

2009-10-15T04:54:00.000-07:00

What else...
I used to LOVE my birthday, well not anymore.
What's the big deal anyway? It's nothing more than an ordinary day, nothing more than significant.
I have been yearning for my birthday to come, but now that i'm living it, seriously, even I myself somewhat overlook the importance of this day? what is there for me to look forward to?
I'm starting to hate my birthday, given a chance, I would rather erase its existance. What's the significance of this 24-hour-cycle anyway? It has always been disappointing for me.
Well, probably my expectations are, to put it simply, too much to ask for.
I should cease this stupid expectation of mine and learn to be optimistic about this beautiful letdown. Though I know this wouldn't alleviate my pain, I'm really sick of the disappointment.
To hell with you, my dear birthday, I hate you.

A bed of thorns, with roses beneath the mattress

2009-09-04T07:21:00.000-07:00

LET'S GO! high spirited, elated, determined and topped off with enhanced discipline, I'm all poised to take on LAW! RAWR!
LAW's like a beast, not to be taken lightly, hiakhiak...But I believe hardwork would be adequate keep the beast nailed in its den. Now that I've gotten rid of chemistry, I have to be more enthusiastic in my studies, at least, keep up with the lecturers and show more zest in reading.

It isn't easy though, to make such a leap from the science stream to arts. While the former requires consistency in practice, the latter requires a lot of reading, which, I have not done in decades. And the language part, is considerably demanding. An enormous amount of reading has to be done, so I guess this endeavour isn't going to be a bed of roses, but rather, a bed of thorns.

Law jargonssssss...another pain in the neck, is exasperating, in the sense that, most of the words are ambiguous, and the difference in meaning is often subtle. ==''

But it feels really good to do what I've been yearning to do =) The fact that I screwed up my A level cannot be erased, so law, you're my last chance of redemption! =D

Lovin' what most would fear =)

2009-07-26T08:28:00.000-07:00

Separation makes a good blacksmith,

as it forges sturdy relationships.

But the process of doing which,

Does not come with ease,

The tempering,

The smelting,

often hold substantially destructive risks.

But as and when the tempering is done,

such relationships would bow to separation, no more.

The REAL culprit

2009-07-10T06:04:00.000-07:00

Having been told that money isn't everything, I underestimated the value of money until the age of 18. It wasnt long before the truth forced my eyes open.

I've been witnessing 'mild-tragedies' which involve money, the result of which enlightened me on how lucky I was, yes, WAS - having money to spend on extravagances like music players, games and anything that could captivate my attention.

The saying goes "Life is not always a bed of roses". Some people could barely understand the meaning of this 'you-have-to-experience-it-to-understand-it' phrase, but the existence of the 'upper class and lower class' aptly explains the my statement.

Experiencing it is one thing ; but understanding makes up another challenge.

Have you ever blamed your family for not being able to afford your wants? Have you ever had financial woes?

I have experienced the okay-life, the mediocre life, and is currently living the "a class-below mediocre" life, you name it.

Though I never blamed my family for upheavals we have gone through, It is indeed AWESOME to go loose on your spendings, spend without a detailed budget, and without having to worry about your family's financial woes. Yea, who doesn't like to spend? It isnt fun to keep money in, the greatest part lies within the spending part, the feeling of triumph to spoil yourself with extravagances, and to satisfy all your wants.

I'm able to see as I've been to college, and I've treaded the inferior-class places (not slums though) as well. I've seen how rich kids spend, and how some people are compelled to put up with hunger, in order to get themselves through the day, not to bring their wants into the picture, not when they already have trouble taking care of their needs. Delving deep into the matter and witnessing it with your own eyes can be jaw dropping.

I never liked the idea of "unfair-ness"(lost for word) but there's nothing I could do.
The urge to help just isnt adequate.

Before you make a demand for gifts, or your wants (not your needs), think! If I were to compare my situation with my (someone), I would be left with nothing to complain - my allowance, budget and my life! He's abroad and almost out of cash. Not wanting to burden his family, he refuses to turn to his parents. The result of which has starved him countless times and has given him worries that most cannot understand. If I had the money, I would have given him all of it! It breaks my heart to learn that he's out of cash, and not guaranteed a meal everyday.

Money is merely "fun?" to some people, but replaces oxygen's role to others.

I would consider myself lucky =)

Deep sheet

2009-07-09T03:55:00.001-07:00

like a minstrel deprived of his muse...
I cant write shit ><

Hold, halt

2009-06-29T22:47:00.000-07:00

Last weeeeek I saw a film...as i recall it was a horrrrrror filmmmmm
my Hhhhheart stoooood stillll soooo diddd tiiiiime and sppppaaceeee....

amor =)

2009-06-03T10:21:00.001-07:00

LOVE does wonders

LOVE is able to blind a person

LOVE is able to deprive a person of his rationality

LOVE is able to render a person selfish

LOVE is able to render a person violent

LOVE is, however, blissful at times....

there's a fine line between LOVE and HATE...

Cross it and u'll never be able to make a comeback

LOVE gets stale in one blink of an eye

A thoughtful suprise or two always reinvigorate a stale relationship and get things going...

taking things for granted is certainly a No-No.

LOVE requires you to put yourself into your partner's shoes,

intermittent care is never adequate

LOVE requires you to register 100% of your effort....

THINK,

BEFORE YOU COMPLAIN

THINK,

BEFORE YOU THROW A TANTRUM

THINK, THINK AND THINK

BEFORE YOU JEOPARDISE YOUR RELATIONSHIP

To err is human

2009-05-08T07:52:00.000-07:00

ERR...I dunno what to say la
=p

well but im way too forgiving of people, and that makes me sooo Divine

A man follows his wife to the church one day and finds a reverend's speech incredibly good.
The man talks to the reverend after the speech.
"hey rev, the talk was DAMN impressive!"
calmly, the reverend replies
"I appreciate your compliment but you shouldn't swear in the lord's house"
"Yea, im sorry, but it was GODDAMN good" yells the man.
"DO NOT swear in the lord's house" the reverend replies.
"Oh I'm DAMN sorry."
"DO NOT...."
"Okay, well I slotted 100 dollars into the donation box, for your speech was so inspiring"
"No Shit?" replies the reverend.

You're fine,you shine,you're mine

2009-04-25T12:33:00.000-07:00

Everytime we lie awake
stars never failed to shine at the zenith
Traces of light might have given me the courage i needed, who knows,
to
mail you my enveloped feelings
and so i did, verbally...
the wait for your feedback was excruciating,
the pressure was tremendous,
but i was not overwhelmed by grief
i worked my way into your heart,
worked to eliminate my rivals,
worked to earn your trust,
and worked to gain your love.

You may not be the prettiest girl on earth
but I promise you
you are the most precious gem in my heart
for you always shine before my eyes.

I may be unable to give you everything beneath the sky
but
I am able to provide you with all the love you'll ever need, beneath the very same sky.

Dawn,
I love you

Patrick =)

I will be all that you want

2009-04-25T04:19:00.001-07:00

There’s nothing I can say to you
Nothing I could ever do to make you see
What you mean to me
All the pain the tears they cry
Still you never said goodbye and now I know how far you’d go
I know I let you down but its not like that now
This time I’ll never let you go
I will be
all that you want
and get my self together
Cause you keep me from falling apart
All my life I’ll be with you forever
To get you through the day and make every thing OK
I thought that I had every thing
I didn’t know what life could bring
But now I see honestly
You're the one thing I got right
The only one I let inside
Now I can breathe cause your here with me
And if I let you down I’ll turn it all around
Cause I would never let you go
I will be
all that you want and get my self together
Cause you keep me from falling apart
All my life I’ll be with you forever
To get you through the day and make every thing OK
Cause without you I can’t sleep
I’m not gonna ever ever let you leave
You’re all I got You’re all I want
Yeah And without you I don’t know what I’ll do
I could never ever live a day without you
Here with me do you see your all I need

stumble and foll...fall

2009-04-25T04:17:00.001-07:00

Life has never been a bed of roses for 90% of people
What gives the remaining 10% the right to enjoy the privilege
Im not saying this out of jealousy,
im not trying to be a wussy,
But Damn
I want my very own 'bed of roses'

Knowing that hardwork's the key to it
My feet have yet to take The first step
what's holding me back??
I have myself to blame, thank you

and hey Cam-A-Level,
FUCK YOU

Hazardous endeavour

2009-03-28T03:33:00.000-07:00

harrrrrzardousssssss eennnnnndeavour
Don't worry... I'm not trying to conquer the peak of mt. everest...as usual the title isnt related to the post.

let's just cut the crap and talk about....uhmmm me?

hey hey why not... ok despite the harsh fact that i'm not an interesting guy, I try hard to please everyone around me. but I have a few...weird traits that isolate me from some people. well, i'm not sure if isolate's the right term to be used here, but basically the aforesaid traits make me a little unfriendly.

YOU may not know this, but I'm deeply concerned about what people think of me, i guess that makes me a quiet person. I'd rather stay quiet than u know, talking here n there blah blah blah.... and at the end of the day, people hate me for being too...talk-active...noisy.
And I suck at striking a good conversation, developing rapport and stuff like dat...mann that's probably the thing I hate most.

I don't look too "user-friendly" as well, that's a wild guess, correct me if im wrong =P, i'd be more than happy to get a feedback from you.

Apart from that, I'm a little anti-social wouldnt u say?

AND YA...i get intimidated by gurlssssssssssssss...thanks to SMK Tinggi Melaka

I don't mix around well but I care a lot for my friends, well worthy friends.
yea... it may be hard to approach me but... feel free to ask me for help, if i'm of any. I'd be more than happy to help! =)

The first line says it all

2009-02-01T06:17:00.000-08:00

FUCK

To hell with your arrogance,
your ignorance.
and your presence.

Intoxicating bliss

2009-01-17T19:12:00.000-08:00

Had a really rough weekend, sleep deprived.

It was well worth it though, Life was never this great =)

I have to thank Kevin for that, he made my weekend!

I left my door ajar for him that friday, the first thing he said to me was

"still dun wanna close ur door boss?" sorry lo boss

he walked in with his handheld game console, Kevin's back!

Man it was really nice to see him again

Had everything planned out for the weekend without fail and yea! Our schedule was AWESOME.

My friend Yee Chang then asked me out for dinner.

"oh my that's even better!" Yee Chang's a guy who would do bizzare stuff as well.

so he tagged along and off we went to....where ah...THE BAKERY!!

had nasi goreng "bandar" xD

And the next minute, we were all into shooting you know, "Iam legend kind of creatures".

The gameplay's really creepy, sends chill down your fucking spine. It's a great game though, i'm giving it a 9.5/10 =D

ARGGG, we're craving for human flesh!! come get some, gorgeous!

We were so fired up and what time did we stop ah kevin? To top things off, we packed and went straight to mid-valley the following day. Man I nearly collapsed.

haha, well but the trip was awesome, who cares about the dark circles around my eyes and expanded eye bags.

Freebies up for grabs, take a look at this phenomenon.

#1 free sushi(s)

#2 free cash

#3 free rides

the whole damn place was insanely crowded as if everything was free

We came back in the evening, I instinctively bought a can of coffee and slept after that xD for like 15 minutes.

Kevin had to help his friend with some computer glitch, so we went up to his friend's place and convinced him to shoot creepy creatures with us. xD

We finished the entire game in just one and a half day...woah my brain almost vapourised ==

haha thanks kevin boss.

Metal d'light

2008-12-11T00:58:00.000-08:00

the rev - drums

Zacky Vengeance - guitar

Synyster gates - guitar

M. Shadow - vocal

Johnny - bass

Genesis 4:24, where Cain is sentenced to life in exile for murdering his brother. God marked him so that none would kill him on account of his sin; the man who dared to kill Cain would suffer "vengeance seven times over" .
-Derivation of the band's name-

I'd thank Ron for introducing this band to me.
Vastly different from my taste of music, the band did not impress me when I first heard their 'bat country' in my room, with ronnie boy. I used to have something against metal bands, some kind of prejudice i think.
But I'm a HUGE Avenged Sevenfold fan now <3

MIA was the first song to mesmerise me, the guitar solo's just next to impossible, yea i was impressed.

Bat country > catchy, metal, powerful, awesome guitar solo

beast and the harlot > heavy, superb live, the 'harlot' =P , cool intro, double bass

Seize the day > syn's coffin solo, Seize the day, die regretting the time u lost...... catchy
Unholy confessions > excellent metal song

Dear God > a different attempt by avenged sevenfold, very much appreciated by me, superb song

blinded in chains > ROAR!!!!

afterlife > I love avenged sevenfold

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2008-12-05T01:36:00.001-08:00

Would you want to work 6 days a week, 12 hours daily for a monthly pay of RM700???
Fuck off man, you must be out of your mind.
Lol, but no offence as I WOULD take up the challenge.
What's the point of staying home, laying on the crouch all day and end up getting severe backaches and possibly, spine problems??
Yep, I'm now working, as in NOW~ (tengah bekerja)
lol
i'm such a silly donkey but anyway
Im working as a full time celcom promoter, so if you need anything that has to do with this teenager-oppressing company [not really that bad la the commission's fantastic ( 2 thumbs up) ] feel free to contact me, but trust me, I wont be of any help.
It's my second working day yay, and thanks to my outstanding ability to bull shit, i've earned myself 30 bucks for christmas!
My supervisor, or rather boss is now away in Kuantan =P that's why! i'm courageous enough to blog with my laptop right now in the centre of MP. hooray [ triumphant grinn ]
hehe
i'm getting PAID for my job man jesus christ, better get back to my work or i'll get LAID
tata

LOVELESS - Genesis' favourite play

2008-08-31T00:54:00.001-07:00

ahhhh, a complete compilation of LOVELESS! Thankss to Kevin~

Prologue
When the war of the beasts brings about the world’s end
The goddess descends from the sky
Wings of light and dark spread afar
She guides us to bliss, her gift everlasting

Act I
Infinite in mystery is the gift of the goddess
We seek it thus, and take it to the sky
Ripples form on the water’s surface
The wandering soul knows no rest.

Act II
There is no hate, only joy
For you are beloved by the goddess
Hero of the dawn, Healer of worlds
Dreams of the morrow hath the shattered soul
Pride is lostWings stripped away, the end is nigh

Act III
My friend, do you fly away now?
To a world that abhors you and I?
All that awaits you is a somber morrow
No matter where the winds may blow
My friend, your desire
Is the bringer of life, the gift of the goddess
Even if the morrow is barren of promises
Nothing shall forestall my return

Act IV
My friend, the fates are cruel
There are no dreams, no honor remains
The arrow has left the bow of the goddess
My soul, corrupted by vengeance
Hath endured torment, to find the end of the journey
In my own salvation
And your eternal slumber
Legend shall speak
Of sacrifice at world’s end
The wind sails over the water’s surface
Quietly, but surely

Act V
Even if the morrow is barren of promises
Nothing shall forestall my return
To become the dew that quenches the land
To spare the sands, the seas, the skies
I offer thee this silent sacrifice

Epilogue
Even if the Goddess had banished me from the milky way
My maroon hair remains shiny
To match my blood red schiavona
So that I can travel across the desolated land, in style
As a first class SOLDIER
with boundless Power muahahaha

P.M - Palm Muting

2008-08-31T00:13:00.000-07:00

COOL AND EASY

Palm muting is often illustrated like this :

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-7-7--7--7--7---------
-7-7--5--7--7---------
-5-5--5--5--5---------
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............... <-- Palm mute

Chords bottomed with tiny dots are played P.muted.

How to palm mute?
2nd picture - karate stance lol, gently place ur palm across the strings (between the 3rd pickup and the bridge( 3rd picture)
1st picture - bend ur wrist towards u, get the hang of it and tad's all!

Emerald dayy

2008-08-30T23:13:00.000-07:00

They were once the symbol of punk-rock. They are "green day".

Black shirt coupled with a red tie, studded belt,narrow jeans. These prominent traits conjure billy joe armstrong, the vocalist/guitarist of GreenDay.
14 year old friends Billie Joe Armstrong and Mike Dirnt formed a band called Sweet Children in 1987. That's basically all I know haha, Tre cool joined the band a little later and uhmmm yea all 3 of them are fucking awesome!

Not hearing much from them now...but they're still one hell of band. sniff*

SUM41- Over my head

2008-08-30T06:49:00.000-07:00

- Love at first...sound? haha

What happened to you
You've played the victim for so long now in this game
What i thought was true
It's made of fiction and i'm following the same

But if I try
To make sense of this mess I'm in
I'm not sure where I should begin
I'm falling, I'm falling

Now I'm in over my head, with something i said
Completely misread, I'm better off dead.
And now I can see, how fake you can be
This hypocracy's beginning to get to me.

It's none of my concern
Why look to me because I don't believe in fame
I guess you never heard I've met our makers
They don't even know your name

But if I had to say goodbye to leave this hell
I'd say my time has served me well
I'm falling
I'm falling

Now I'm in over my head, with something i said
Completely misread, I'm better off dead
And now I can see, how fake you can be
This hypocracy's beginning to get to

This came long before those who suffer more
I'm too awake for this to be a nightmare
What's with my disgrace I lost the human race
No one plans for it to blow up in their face

Who said it was easy to put back all these pieces
Who said it was so easy to put back all of these pieces

Now I'm in over my head, with something I said
Completely misread, I'm better off dead
And now I can see, how fake you can be
This hypocracy's beginning to get to me

Story Of the DECADE!

2008-08-30T06:06:00.000-07:00

Look at them...

"Guess it's too bad that everything we had is taken away" VROOMZZZ!!!!
What happens when you bring powerful roars and shiny rims together?
YEAP! Dan marsala infectious voice and Rx7's engine thrust have brought Story of the year into ma life.
curious, I youtubed SOTY and woahhhh they're even better LIVE! haha

Sidewalks-Story Of the Year

2008-08-30T06:01:00.000-07:00

The bridges are crumpled,
The water soaks into rocks,
That fell at the bottom of the road. (At the end the town)
The town that we lived in.
The memories shakin apart from the weeds that grow.

Over the sidewalks,
Running away from the streets we knew,
Sidewalks,
Like the time we thought was made for you.
Or

Out on the front porch,
watching the cars as they go by,
Eighteen blue, twenty one grey,
Looking ahead for the first time that we could drive,
Out on our own,
To speed away

From the sidewalks,
Running away from the streets we knew,
Sidewalks,
Like the time we thought was made for you.
Or

All of days that past us by,
All of the sun is gone...
Away

Sidewalks,
Running away from the streets we knew,

Sidewalks,
Running away from the streets we knew,
Sidewalks,
Like the time we thought was made for you.
(Sidewalks)
The bridges are crumpled,
(Sidewalks)
The water soaks into rocks,
That fell at the bottom of the road.

Mute

2008-08-30T05:43:00.000-07:00

Who in their right mind would want to live in a world without music?
Wikipedia defines music as an art form in which the medium is sound organized in time. Simple enough heh?
This music-based blog is merely a glimpse into the great abyss of music as hehe I guess I'll comment only about my favourite songs and not more than tad...Sorry Mawi, you're not in the list. wahahha