What else...
I used to LOVE my birthday, well not anymore.
What's the big deal anyway? It's nothing more than an ordinary day, nothing more than significant.
I have been yearning for my birthday to come, but now that i'm living it, seriously, even I myself somewhat overlook the importance of this day? what is there for me to look forward to?
I'm starting to hate my birthday, given a chance, I would rather erase its existance. What's the significance of this 24-hour-cycle anyway? It has always been disappointing for me.
Well, probably my expectations are, to put it simply, too much to ask for.
I should cease this stupid expectation of mine and learn to be optimistic about this beautiful letdown. Though I know this wouldn't alleviate my pain, I'm really sick of the disappointment.
To hell with you, my dear birthday, I hate you.
Thursday, October 15, 2009
15/10/2009
Friday, September 4, 2009
A bed of thorns, with roses beneath the mattress
LET'S GO! high spirited, elated, determined and topped off with enhanced discipline, I'm all poised to take on LAW! RAWR!
LAW's like a beast, not to be taken lightly, hiakhiak...But I believe hardwork would be adequate keep the beast nailed in its den. Now that I've gotten rid of chemistry, I have to be more enthusiastic in my studies, at least, keep up with the lecturers and show more zest in reading.
It isn't easy though, to make such a leap from the science stream to arts. While the former requires consistency in practice, the latter requires a lot of reading, which, I have not done in decades. And the language part, is considerably demanding. An enormous amount of reading has to be done, so I guess this endeavour isn't going to be a bed of roses, but rather, a bed of thorns.
Law jargonssssss...another pain in the neck, is exasperating, in the sense that, most of the words are ambiguous, and the difference in meaning is often subtle. ==''
But it feels really good to do what I've been yearning to do =) The fact that I screwed up my A level cannot be erased, so law, you're my last chance of redemption! =D
Sunday, July 26, 2009
Lovin' what most would fear =)
Separation makes a good blacksmith,
Friday, July 10, 2009
The REAL culprit
Having been told that money isn't everything, I underestimated the value of money until the age of 18. It wasnt long before the truth forced my eyes open.
I've been witnessing 'mild-tragedies' which involve money, the result of which enlightened me on how lucky I was, yes, WAS - having money to spend on extravagances like music players, games and anything that could captivate my attention.
The saying goes "Life is not always a bed of roses". Some people could barely understand the meaning of this 'you-have-to-experience-it-to-understand-it' phrase, but the existence of the 'upper class and lower class' aptly explains the my statement.
Experiencing it is one thing ; but understanding makes up another challenge.
Have you ever blamed your family for not being able to afford your wants? Have you ever had financial woes?
I have experienced the okay-life, the mediocre life, and is currently living the "a class-below mediocre" life, you name it.
Though I never blamed my family for upheavals we have gone through, It is indeed AWESOME to go loose on your spendings, spend without a detailed budget, and without having to worry about your family's financial woes. Yea, who doesn't like to spend? It isnt fun to keep money in, the greatest part lies within the spending part, the feeling of triumph to spoil yourself with extravagances, and to satisfy all your wants.
I'm able to see as I've been to college, and I've treaded the inferior-class places (not slums though) as well. I've seen how rich kids spend, and how some people are compelled to put up with hunger, in order to get themselves through the day, not to bring their wants into the picture, not when they already have trouble taking care of their needs. Delving deep into the matter and witnessing it with your own eyes can be jaw dropping.
I never liked the idea of "unfair-ness"(lost for word) but there's nothing I could do.
The urge to help just isnt adequate.
Before you make a demand for gifts, or your wants (not your needs), think! If I were to compare my situation with my (someone), I would be left with nothing to complain - my allowance, budget and my life! He's abroad and almost out of cash. Not wanting to burden his family, he refuses to turn to his parents. The result of which has starved him countless times and has given him worries that most cannot understand. If I had the money, I would have given him all of it! It breaks my heart to learn that he's out of cash, and not guaranteed a meal everyday.
Money is merely "fun?" to some people, but replaces oxygen's role to others.
I would consider myself lucky =)
Thursday, July 9, 2009
Monday, June 29, 2009
Hold, halt
Last weeeeek I saw a film...as i recall it was a horrrrrror filmmmmm
my Hhhhheart stoooood stillll soooo diddd tiiiiime and sppppaaceeee....
Wednesday, June 3, 2009
amor =)
