15/10/2009

What else...
I used to LOVE my birthday, well not anymore.
What's the big deal anyway? It's nothing more than an ordinary day, nothing more than significant.
I have been yearning for my birthday to come, but now that i'm living it, seriously, even I myself somewhat overlook the importance of this day? what is there for me to look forward to?
I'm starting to hate my birthday, given a chance, I would rather erase its existance. What's the significance of this 24-hour-cycle anyway? It has always been disappointing for me.
Well, probably my expectations are, to put it simply, too much to ask for.
I should cease this stupid expectation of mine and learn to be optimistic about this beautiful letdown. Though I know this wouldn't alleviate my pain, I'm really sick of the disappointment.
To hell with you, my dear birthday, I hate you.

A bed of thorns, with roses beneath the mattress

LET'S GO! high spirited, elated, determined and topped off with enhanced discipline, I'm all poised to take on LAW! RAWR!
LAW's like a beast, not to be taken lightly, hiakhiak...But I believe hardwork would be adequate keep the beast nailed in its den. Now that I've gotten rid of chemistry, I have to be more enthusiastic in my studies, at least, keep up with the lecturers and show more zest in reading.

It isn't easy though, to make such a leap from the science stream to arts. While the former requires consistency in practice, the latter requires a lot of reading, which, I have not done in decades. And the language part, is considerably demanding. An enormous amount of reading has to be done, so I guess this endeavour isn't going to be a bed of roses, but rather, a bed of thorns.

Law jargonssssss...another pain in the neck, is exasperating, in the sense that, most of the words are ambiguous, and the difference in meaning is often subtle. ==''

But it feels really good to do what I've been yearning to do =) The fact that I screwed up my A level cannot be erased, so law, you're my last chance of redemption! =D

Lovin' what most would fear =)

Separation makes a good blacksmith,

as it forges sturdy relationships.

But the process of doing which,

Does not come with ease,

The tempering,

The smelting,

often hold substantially destructive risks.

But as and when the tempering is done,

such relationships would bow to separation, no more.

The REAL culprit

Having been told that money isn't everything, I underestimated the value of money until the age of 18. It wasnt long before the truth forced my eyes open.

I've been witnessing 'mild-tragedies' which involve money, the result of which enlightened me on how lucky I was, yes, WAS - having money to spend on extravagances like music players, games and anything that could captivate my attention.

The saying goes "Life is not always a bed of roses". Some people could barely understand the meaning of this 'you-have-to-experience-it-to-understand-it' phrase, but the existence of the 'upper class and lower class' aptly explains the my statement.

Experiencing it is one thing ; but understanding makes up another challenge.

Have you ever blamed your family for not being able to afford your wants? Have you ever had financial woes?

I have experienced the okay-life, the mediocre life, and is currently living the "a class-below mediocre" life, you name it.

Though I never blamed my family for upheavals we have gone through, It is indeed AWESOME to go loose on your spendings, spend without a detailed budget, and without having to worry about your family's financial woes. Yea, who doesn't like to spend? It isnt fun to keep money in, the greatest part lies within the spending part, the feeling of triumph to spoil yourself with extravagances, and to satisfy all your wants.

I'm able to see as I've been to college, and I've treaded the inferior-class places (not slums though) as well. I've seen how rich kids spend, and how some people are compelled to put up with hunger, in order to get themselves through the day, not to bring their wants into the picture, not when they already have trouble taking care of their needs. Delving deep into the matter and witnessing it with your own eyes can be jaw dropping.

I never liked the idea of "unfair-ness"(lost for word) but there's nothing I could do.
The urge to help just isnt adequate.

Before you make a demand for gifts, or your wants (not your needs), think! If I were to compare my situation with my (someone), I would be left with nothing to complain - my allowance, budget and my life! He's abroad and almost out of cash. Not wanting to burden his family, he refuses to turn to his parents. The result of which has starved him countless times and has given him worries that most cannot understand. If I had the money, I would have given him all of it! It breaks my heart to learn that he's out of cash, and not guaranteed a meal everyday.

Money is merely "fun?" to some people, but replaces oxygen's role to others.

I would consider myself lucky =)

Deep sheet

like a minstrel deprived of his muse...
I cant write shit ><

Hold, halt

Last weeeeek I saw a film...as i recall it was a horrrrrror filmmmmm
my Hhhhheart stoooood stillll soooo diddd tiiiiime and sppppaaceeee....

amor =)

LOVE does wonders

LOVE is able to blind a person

LOVE is able to deprive a person of his rationality

LOVE is able to render a person selfish

LOVE is able to render a person violent

LOVE is, however, blissful at times....

there's a fine line between LOVE and HATE...

Cross it and u'll never be able to make a comeback

LOVE gets stale in one blink of an eye

A thoughtful suprise or two always reinvigorate a stale relationship and get things going...

taking things for granted is certainly a No-No.

LOVE requires you to put yourself into your partner's shoes,

intermittent care is never adequate

LOVE requires you to register 100% of your effort....

THINK,

BEFORE YOU COMPLAIN

THINK,

BEFORE YOU THROW A TANTRUM

THINK, THINK AND THINK

BEFORE YOU JEOPARDISE YOUR RELATIONSHIP

To err is human

ERR...I dunno what to say la
=p

well but im way too forgiving of people, and that makes me sooo Divine

A man follows his wife to the church one day and finds a reverend's speech incredibly good.
The man talks to the reverend after the speech.
"hey rev, the talk was DAMN impressive!"
calmly, the reverend replies
"I appreciate your compliment but you shouldn't swear in the lord's house"
"Yea, im sorry, but it was GODDAMN good" yells the man.
"DO NOT swear in the lord's house" the reverend replies.
"Oh I'm DAMN sorry."
"DO NOT...."
"Okay, well I slotted 100 dollars into the donation box, for your speech was so inspiring"
"No Shit?" replies the reverend.

You're fine,you shine,you're mine

Everytime we lie awake
stars never failed to shine at the zenith
Traces of light might have given me the courage i needed, who knows,
to
mail you my enveloped feelings
and so i did, verbally...
the wait for your feedback was excruciating,
the pressure was tremendous,
but i was not overwhelmed by grief
i worked my way into your heart,
worked to eliminate my rivals,
worked to earn your trust,
and worked to gain your love.

You may not be the prettiest girl on earth
but I promise you
you are the most precious gem in my heart
for you always shine before my eyes.

I may be unable to give you everything beneath the sky
but
I am able to provide you with all the love you'll ever need, beneath the very same sky.

Dawn,
I love you

Patrick =)

I will be all that you want

There’s nothing I can say to you
Nothing I could ever do to make you see
What you mean to me
All the pain the tears they cry
Still you never said goodbye and now I know how far you’d go
I know I let you down but its not like that now
This time I’ll never let you go
I will be
all that you want
and get my self together
Cause you keep me from falling apart
All my life I’ll be with you forever
To get you through the day and make every thing OK
I thought that I had every thing
I didn’t know what life could bring
But now I see honestly
You're the one thing I got right
The only one I let inside
Now I can breathe cause your here with me
And if I let you down I’ll turn it all around
Cause I would never let you go
I will be
all that you want and get my self together
Cause you keep me from falling apart
All my life I’ll be with you forever
To get you through the day and make every thing OK
Cause without you I can’t sleep
I’m not gonna ever ever let you leave
You’re all I got You’re all I want
Yeah And without you I don’t know what I’ll do
I could never ever live a day without you
Here with me do you see your all I need

stumble and foll...fall

Life has never been a bed of roses for 90% of people
What gives the remaining 10% the right to enjoy the privilege
Im not saying this out of jealousy,
im not trying to be a wussy,
But Damn
I want my very own 'bed of roses'

Knowing that hardwork's the key to it
My feet have yet to take The first step
what's holding me back??
I have myself to blame, thank you


and hey Cam-A-Level,
FUCK YOU

Hazardous endeavour

harrrrrzardousssssss eennnnnndeavour
Don't worry... I'm not trying to conquer the peak of mt. everest...as usual the title isnt related to the post.

let's just cut the crap and talk about....uhmmm me?

hey hey why not... ok despite the harsh fact that i'm not an interesting guy, I try hard to please everyone around me. but I have a few...weird traits that isolate me from some people. well, i'm not sure if isolate's the right term to be used here, but basically the aforesaid traits make me a little unfriendly.

YOU may not know this, but I'm deeply concerned about what people think of me, i guess that makes me a quiet person. I'd rather stay quiet than u know, talking here n there blah blah blah.... and at the end of the day, people hate me for being too...talk-active...noisy.
And I suck at striking a good conversation, developing rapport and stuff like dat...mann that's probably the thing I hate most.

I don't look too "user-friendly" as well, that's a wild guess, correct me if im wrong =P, i'd be more than happy to get a feedback from you.

Apart from that, I'm a little anti-social wouldnt u say?

AND YA...i get intimidated by gurlssssssssssssss...thanks to SMK Tinggi Melaka

I don't mix around well but I care a lot for my friends, well worthy friends.
yea... it may be hard to approach me but... feel free to ask me for help, if i'm of any. I'd be more than happy to help! =)

The first line says it all

FUCK

To hell with your arrogance,
your ignorance.
and your presence.

Intoxicating bliss

Had a really rough weekend, sleep deprived.

It was well worth it though, Life was never this great =)

I have to thank Kevin for that, he made my weekend!

I left my door ajar for him that friday, the first thing he said to me was

"still dun wanna close ur door boss?" sorry lo boss

he walked in with his handheld game console, Kevin's back!

Man it was really nice to see him again

Had everything planned out for the weekend without fail and yea! Our schedule was AWESOME.

My friend Yee Chang then asked me out for dinner.

"oh my that's even better!" Yee Chang's a guy who would do bizzare stuff as well.

so he tagged along and off we went to....where ah...THE BAKERY!!

had nasi goreng "bandar" xD

And the next minute, we were all into shooting you know, "Iam legend kind of creatures".

The gameplay's really creepy, sends chill down your fucking spine. It's a great game though, i'm giving it a 9.5/10 =D

ARGGG, we're craving for human flesh!! come get some, gorgeous!

We were so fired up and what time did we stop ah kevin? To top things off, we packed and went straight to mid-valley the following day. Man I nearly collapsed.

haha, well but the trip was awesome, who cares about the dark circles around my eyes and expanded eye bags.

Freebies up for grabs, take a look at this phenomenon.

#1 free sushi(s)

#2 free cash

#3 free rides

=P

the whole damn place was insanely crowded as if everything was free

We came back in the evening, I instinctively bought a can of coffee and slept after that xD for like 15 minutes.

Kevin had to help his friend with some computer glitch, so we went up to his friend's place and convinced him to shoot creepy creatures with us. xD

We finished the entire game in just one and a half day...woah my brain almost vapourised ==

haha thanks kevin boss.